minding own business

there is nothing like minding own business...
i heard that it is hardest job...
but for me it's the easiest and coolest job...and to mind others business is very hard and bugging
at work place...i mind my own business and never evn think of others...on other hand..i dont even let any1 to mind my business, in case if any1 dares do that, i c to it they dont ever dare to mind anybody elses business also.
it so happened dat an old lady's been trying to do the same here in my skool with me, i did nothing to make her realize with whom she's messing. i kept quiet all these days, but today she's tested my patience and she sensed it when i still kept quiet. she was fully shaken to c me quiet, she understood dat i'm gonna give it to my higher authories in writing abt her. the way she behaved with me to express how sorry she was..was quite funny. i just ignored her as a part of behaviour modification for her..she was trying to seek my attention. :P
my management also is so very irritating..they just pissed me off.. i'm going thru grt depression n trying hard to come out of it.
there is some kind of visual impairment here with my skool ppl, i believe. they cant see my success stories, they only see how stubborn i'm. they call me stubborn..i call it strictness.
i'm hating my job. god pls c me,,,
my only happiness over here is my student M. HE'S MY BABY. i'm nurture him with grt love n care. he's my pride. till date he's never upset me. the saddest n sickest side of me is...he told me n expressed that he wants to sleep in my room, because he's getting scared in his room and also that he likes my room. a special child communicating and expressing his wants with genuine and clear reasons. he expected me to take him to my room tonight. i'm sick. i cudnt stand up to his expectations. there is a hell lot of procedure to do it, i can do it. but i want to overcome his fear to sleep alone. this i dont know how to tell him. in a way he's inspired to open up n tell the needs clearly. his action has made me speechless today. a boy who only used to say ya/ y/ no/ ok...now talks in sentences dat too with clarity in thought, expression and speech. whose acheivement is it? his/mine/ both?
during dusshera...my mood was out and i did not celebrate..i havent even taken bath that day. if im not happy..it is not festival. if i'm happy that is time to celebrate and its festival for me.
recently there have been few instances apart from my student's performances, that made me happy..yet i failed to celebrate fearing that some1 known/unknown wud kill my joy. i celebrated it thinking it to myself, staying alone, remembering and recollecting all the instances that gave me happiness n made me feel like celebrating.
what am i up2???? at times i dont find answer to this question. sometimes extremely happy and some other times too depressed...but 1 big thing is...emotionally stable. wen happy am not jumping high out of joy n wen depresd am not crying/etc...i'm minding my own business n trying to conquer myself....