recent moments

Inspiration: A cousin of mine has inspired me alot and has been inspiring me so much of late. every1 of us get ideas. not many implement. i do it. but unlike me, my cousin, the moment he got the idea, started working on it...he is working so hard to make it true/ possible. kudos to his attitude n spirit. i was only wondering and learning to take out time from any busy schedules to do something gud/ new. we have to make it possible howeva difficult it is. dear bro...many say that i'm inspiration for them...u have inspired me grtly...i promise this inspiration that i've got from u, will be reflected in me soon. he's my big bro. he's a leo. \m/

Desperation: I'm desperately trying to come out of a hell. I'm living in a dead place. i'm suffering n i strongly feel that i dont deserve to suffer the way i'm. god give me a sigh.

Frustration: there are certain unanswered questions, unpredictable people, untold words, unexplainable emotional feelings, unending agony.....these all can be cleared but i really dunno how. but are causing me grtr frustration.

Agitation: it is n in my mind. life is like water...unstable. up n downs, like some ecg line..


Emotion:  fully disturbed. outward. throwing out. impulsive at once. god knows y this. god...i asked u 'why me??' not 'try me!'.

Determination: I'm determined to learn classical dance n i will...but dunno wen...:P


Termination: some ppl n few habits are intentionally n deliberately terminated from my life by me. n am happy abt it.


Resolution: I should develop some 'ego'...well this ego shdnt cum in between my way...i mean in my relationships/work/woteva


Transformation: life previously appeared to b so 'S*cking', but now that 'S' has transformed to a big 'F' thing. Damn it.

Suffocation: his anxs n reaxns are suffocating me...i'm afraid that i'll be blown away someday without a notice.

dunno wen exactly...but surely will c ya all in the next post...
until then...chillax