waiting

am just waiting desperately for this weekend. am suffering and i wanna take a chill pil this saturday eveng.

but am getting the chill pills everyday unexpectedly and to my surprise. i'll tell u y n how....

in the mornings, in the bathrooms, while taking bath and on the roads while driving at 60kmph to the college...my wet eyes make me feel miss the rains. i've neva eva had this nervousness..'great tension' before going to exam hall. neva was so exhausted and worried. may be 'coz i was not into study things and i dint know the value of education n exams, earlier. of late.. things are changing n eventually even i'm. my practical exams have already started. i was thinking that i was highly overconfident abt my work and the attitude i possessed was wrong. but in the last two days things have happened to surprise me, to make me feel hopeful and to cheer me up. the external examiners are pretty impressed with my work and my attitude towards my field of work. that's made me correct my self that am not overconfident. my confidence is right and am going in a correct path. it's making me feel glad that genuineness pays. god sees the truth but waits. we reap what we sow. all these kinda things sound so true n real. 

in this connection i'd like to thank my lovely sis Swats (click to read her), my sweety mum, and most wonderful friend 3nath. they've helped me a lot in finishing my record work and in making materials for the final practical exams. i love 'em so much. I'm feeling that am fully into debts :P. i cant pay bak swats n 3nath in material or words to thank 'em for the timely support they've extended n still.

at the same time am feeling sad that once if my practicals r done, i'll not b teaching kids till the time i get a new job/ join a new course. i'll definitely find it impossible n difficult. n also know that i've to patient.

am waiting for the June n for this saturday  to come in a minute. i know ..am too much.

chalo guys..am signing off n c ya al soon.

let's all take care of ourselves....

bubye

sans's ...believe it or not!

Believe it or not..... *

*am really surprised...it's been a week...i mean a week passed so quickly...

*to tell u..i had F***ing week and a sucking weekend. yesterday since early morning 10:00am i was writing records. and i was writing till 2:00am  of next day..i.e, today in the midnight. i dint realize that it was 2am until my sis told me. the weekdays were so pathetic that i experienced all tensions and crisis. however, i reached all the targets and succeeded. 

*i'm greatly thankful to my frn 3nath darling who helped and tried to help me a lot. he's a sweetie pie. he's taken care of me and my laptop. 

*in my last post i 4got to mention that 1 of my best frns vamsi bought a car. it's an achievement for him, his family and to al of us. it's a real proud feeling. at this age he's bought a ford car. i know how hard he's working...and he's being paid (euphemism) for his efforts.

*am stopping to write this post abruptly to continue to write record n to brk the records.

Hav a nice time frns...

cya.

sans

quick updates

Following are the recent happenings wrt to sans.

1. Sans is looking fwd to see May 1st week asap. 'coz sans's gonna finish her education and can come out of the shitty place and ppl around der.

2. Sans is busy writing records, completing assignments and is getting ready for the final exams.

3. Sans is out of the hell (hostel) and is having rice n roti (instead of the messy mess food=grass@hostel) with sis swats.

4. Sans (u can call me an ignorant soul) is seriously searching for him every moment and everywer. sans was told that he's omnipresent but is unable to find him and missing his presence v badly. he's admired and followed by sans. He's the God. God-Almighty.

5. Sans has taken a critical decision about higher education. sans is not gonna go to college anymore, no more exams, no record writing, no lecturers, no peer pressures, no tensions, no ******* ppl. If at all sans wanna higher studies, she'll opt to do it in a distance mode.

6. Sans has started hunting for a job as a special educator &/ or as a remedial teacher.

7. Sans has lost lots of weight. now her ht : wt = 5'10" : 45kg. yeah malnourished. lols :P

8. Sans is slowly becoming beauty conscious these days. paying attention to skin, hair, eyes etc. (feeling lil strange).

9. Sans watched 'teen patti' and got badly affected 'dimaag ki batti'. looking fwd to c MNIK if time permits, sometime in the next week.

10. Sans is finding it difficult yet making it possible to hold her temper, keep herself balanced emotionally and mentally.

11. Sans got her bajaj spirit (i call it GK) repaired. after so many years it's now got brakes and a silencer. so having a safe & peaceful drive. but sans lost those thrilling and adventurous drives( on a bike without brakes & horn)on flyovers while competing with guys riding bikes like cbz, pulsar, karizma etc. buhuhu...

12. Sans wants to become happy princess again. u know wot...??sans blog was initially named 'the happy princess'..but slowly wen she was losing her smile n happiness, her blog name was also changed to the 'MRI report of a child's mind' n then to the present one....'the child (i)n me'. god knows wot it's gonna b in future.

13. Sans is fighting silently. gud luck sans.

14. Sans had a leisure Sunday today.

15. Sans is winding up now, to continue record writing. :P

C ya again......
bye n take care.
enjoi madi. \m/