somebody's meee!!!

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
'Cause I, I walk the streets alone
I hate bein' on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
every single night
Somebody can't breath
without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, how could we go wrong?
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our
paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right
here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
every single night
Somebody can't breath
without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
Ohh ya

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You,when you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you
every single night
Somebody can't breath
without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me!!!!!!

thank you Enrique...i stole your lyrics 'coz u stole my thoughts.

Thank you...

i wanted to thank my childhood buddy Ravi Kiran for wishing me on a really very special day and making it more wonderful, infact he was the only person who wished me. i was celebrating that day all alone and it's my innate happiness. i was afraid if i tell ppl that i wanna celebrate that day and ppl might mistake me. so i dint reveal it. but my frn ravi knows me and he wished me. weneva i see the sms i feel so glad n merry. i see that msg to b glad n merry. \m/
Thank You Ravi...Thank you so much for wishing me on Children's Day. u really made me feel happy. I'll keep the msg as long as i can.

alt

tell me,...for everything we have alternatives? i dunno the exact answer n i'm not sure whether i'll b able 2 find ans for it.. but yes for many things there are alternatives. at times i find the alternatives as more interesting than the real ones. for example communication. wot r the alternative means of communication apart from our regular verbal communication? sign language, body lang, gestures, facial expressions, written, etc etc.

out of ll these i find sign language to b more interesting. there are different sign languages that vary from place-to-place. wen i was doing my post graduation at vizag, i've learnt communicating in sign lang using both hands. here i've learnt to form a-z alphabet using either single/ both the hands. it's great. i taught this to few of my frns. i used this as a technique to help my frns from slipping their tongues while spking to strangers , teachers etc.
recently i've started learning ASL= American Sign Language and i thoroughly enjoy using it.
the specialty of ASL is we use only 1 hand n u know it's universal. at NIHH(national institute for the hearing handicapped) ,(note we r not supposed to call them as deaf n dumb but hearing n speech impaired) i found many hyderabadis using ASL for communication.
i found it difficult to communicate in sign lang using spellings at an ashram(i spoke abt it in one of my first few posts) becoz the children over there dunno English lang n so it was difficult. still i cud use spellings in asking for a particular child by forming name. \m/
if we learn it, we'll b able to help ourselves n our frns n sometimes even help children/adults with hearing and speech impairments for an effective communication.
am providing links. readers who are interested can follow or u can simply ignore.
(click on ASL) ASL .

thanks to Christmas holidays..for i got some time to finish off my pending projects n blogs.
Happy Christmas n happy holidays.
cya

enough yaar...

i'm dying 4 my college to re-open asap, so that i can focus on studies, my goals n on my life.
i'm habituated to more work and stress. in one of my previous post...confessions of workoholic...u must have understood how i used to work. like that even now am being put under stress. i was actually enjoying that work pressure...(when pain is inevitable..enjoi it).
but now u see becoz of this Telangan-Andhra clashes we(students) have been enjoying holidays since 4th dec. aah! enough yaar. how many more days..? and becoz of these holidays my final exams have been postponed to MAY-2010 from APRIL-2010. buhuhuhu..
becoz of these clashes there is so much of loss 2 the govt, mango ppl(aam janta) and many more.
T-A clashes n ppl...enough yaar!

macho (wo)MEN \m/

i'm afraid in future our cine industry becomes female dominated. the heroin based movies. herion will be the hero. lols :P

i remember the movie 'jamba lakadi pomba' in telugu..wer the heroin feels jealous of the male dominated society and goes to a sage, takes some green tonic (appears like pudin hara :P..watchout) mixes in tank water and from hen all men start acting like women and vice versa. it's a film with too much of humor. well y am i talking abt that film here??? huh.. i hardly read news paper..i mostly watch it :P. wen i was looking thru the news paper i've accidentally found a futo of a heroin that was absolutely stunning n made me speechless. i'm actually falling short of words to describe how i felt wen i saw her. then immediately the picture of one of the famous c-character popped up in my mind. this heroin was initially my fav wen she had a real gud physique. but now she looks abnormal after putting on weight. in the list of this type of heroins..first stands sameera reddy. am sorry..but some how i cant stand woman with lots of muscles n biceps. scary thought..wen i see them in reality it's horrible. yikes.
i hate u macho women!!!

talked when we walked...

this post is in continuation to my previous post talk wen u walk. as u see here in the tagged post there are no comments/feedback/ replies/queries- i was lil upset that no1 has turned up to join me for the walkathon. i decided that i would go alone. kmao! i was so lazy and i eventually forgot to register myself to participate in the walk. the walk was scheduled to be at 7 am of sunday 13th december-09, and i remembered of registration on saturday 12th december-09 at 11pm. i felt that i seriously deserved a big kick. that night my bf(=best frn lol :P, am happy n proud to b stil single) vamsi called me up promising me that he wud like to take me to an early morning ride werever i wanted, since i was asking him for it for a really long time. i said ok. but i had absolutely no hopes that he'd turn up in the morning 'coz he's so gud in managing time. he promised me that he'll be at my place by 5am n i was so confident that he'll be at my place by sharp 8am. by the time v said gudnyt to each other it was almost 2.15am. he needs 8hrs sleep at any cost. so my confidence levels were becoming stronger n stronger. i slep at 3am after doing some imp work online. i planned to getup sometime at around 11am peacefully n i slept.

at around 4:55am i felt as if my mobile was ringing n i woke up to put it on silent mode so that my sis wont get disturbed. as i took my mobile in my hands n opened my eyes i suddenly got an incoming call. vamsi was calling. omg. unbelievable. i thought he'd say that he had no energy to go for the ride n i answered the call. he said that he'll b at my place in 10 mins n cut the line. omg i had to literally rush n was acting like a film that was put on fast fwd. (lols.) he was at my place by 5:05am. i went down n to my surprise he was really there. omg. i took sometime to clear my doubts n confusions whether it's reality/ my illusion. then we started off n were looking for a right place to watch the sunrise. we wandered here n there, had a cup of tea and nice conversations-most of them are funny and few are really crap...yet i enjoyed each n every bit of it. finally we're like 'hands up', there's no place in this big city that is full of tall buildings wer i can see sunrise peacefully n capture it in my super-duper, extra-ordinary lens(it has got so many fans n admirers)n preserve it as a token of memory. i was lil upset again. then he said that he'll take me to the walkathon. i couldnt actually believe my ears. i said ok. we had no petrol in the bike(aah very very lil, not sure whether we'll b able to reach to the petrol bunk), no petrol bunk in the vicinity, and no cash in the pockets (for petrol n to register for walkathon). but this guy ..he was carrying cards! i had no clue wot's gonna happen next. as we started off in search of a petrol bunk... we found an ATM n a petrol bunk on our way. happy! 2 problems solved. and as we started off towards necklace road at a point we could accidentally see the sunrise and it was awesome and unexpected. i loved it to the core. see! one more wish fulfilled. it was almost 6:55am and the scheduled time for the walk was almost nearing and we're really far off from the venue. i thought yet again 'sans is gone case'.
as we reached necklace road it appeared as a no-man road. it was dead silent but too cool. we rode from imax circle till ohri's 70mm and in the meanwhile wot was going in my mind, u shd know. i was feeling bad abt all those ppl who were participating in the rallies and badhs for seperate state and all that. ppl go for such issues and never turn-up for walkathon being conducted for a noble cause. i was even feeling bad about college going students and all those young junta who gather in huge crowds for big events like music/ dance shows given by celebrities. i was only assuming that the walkathon was cancelled and we ad to go back. again upset. cha.
as we crossed ohri's 70mm we saw balloons, banners, and few more ppl walking in n out of jalvihar's parking lot. i was shocked to see volunteers of ashayein-foundation wearing t-shirts n caps, spot registration counters and all that stuff. i couldn't believe my eyes. we stopped n enquired if it was AF's walkathon's spot registration counter. omg. yes it was. we registered. u know wot.. at that moment, i was not on ground state. i was feeling so great about my friend vamsi, who sacrificed his sleep n time just for my sake n to accomplish my wishes b4 he leaves for delhi(he's a 6'2" tall, handsome guy n he suddenly appeared 12'4" tall for an instance:P) . we registered n were waiting for the inauguration. it was a fantastic start 'coz the speech given by hon'ble JP was so. he's a grt man. his spirits are infectious. i admire him a lot. finally we started off. we had a really great time together. while walking n talking we've realised so many things happening around and within. hahhaa, we realised that we're getting tired becoz we dint have brkfast and burning our energy while walking. hunger pangs were on. thanks to AF for supplying water bottles that helped me keep my body n soul together. i became so weak by the time we reached back. walk was so happy, pleasant, meaningful n cheerful 'coz the volunteers have started singing my fav song that i used in my previous school with the kids.
i was thinking of my friend sugeetha who desperately wanted to walk but badly missed it 'coz of some exams. during the walk we realised that our fav hangout-necklace road looks most beautiful in the mornings than in the evenings. it was looking absolutely new n unbelievably awesome.
thank god...i had a really great time. nooo! actually i shd thank vamsi for making my impossible wishes to possible memories. he's adorable.\m/

thats al 4 now. c u soon.

thank gaaawd...

u know wot....i often remember the short story "god sees the truth but waits" by leo tolstoy. sometimes i feel that god waits for too long and disappoints many. but in my case he waits but acts at right moment.

yesterday evening i was dying of severe migraine, temper tantrums, depressions and many more unwanted and irritating emotions. thanks a lot to my lovely sis swats who tried her best to keep me engaged in some or the other small works at home. my friend trin.. came home to cheer me n my sis planned for a movie. but i dint go the movie as i wanted to keep myself away from sounds n lights. i was feeling much better n my sis noticed that n went away with trin....and am home alone then.
i was alright for sometime. then suddenly so many images came in to my mind. the way i used to freak out with my friends, long drives, gossips etc.
i was thinking of ammu my best friend whom i met during my graduation. she's married n left for delhi. i was thinking of ro, sah.., whom i met during my post graduation n those sweet lovely times spent together. these 2 gals are married n r now living in US. i was thinking of FB my colleague at parkwood school..we're grt friends n had grt time in really very short period. now FB is also married. & now Vamsi my best friend n my happiness has left for delhi(still unmarried.. :P). with whomever am becoming close n finding myself really comfortable, safe n happy..they're leaving me n going. i was feeling extremely low n miserable. highly depressed. at this time i dint even think of god.
no1 is at home. i was losing control over myself n becoming week n felt vertigo. i thought i shd go online so that i can chat with frns n keep myself active n away from depressions. i was feeling damn week, unable to type my username n password also, but somehow, i managed to. i found none of my best &/or good friends online n hence, rested my head on the pillow to stare at the roof. suddenly i heard the ping sound. i turned my head to the lappy n saw it was sahi.., amazing. i dint tell her abt my condition. she wanted to have a voice chat with me, but unfortunately the lappy's speakers went out of condition. i felt bad. wth. another ping...i was really surprised n felt so happy to see 'ro'. waah! 2 of my best friends are online (that too wen i needed them badly). i told ro to wait for a moment so that i can go, look for my headfones. i had no energy yrt tried my best to get up n go the corner of my room n to find the headfones completely entangled...the sight of which made me feel more weaker. i then heard my mobile ringing, i left the headfones, went to my mobile. i went to it to wear a grt smile. wow! it's 'ro' calling me from USA. it was a couple of months i dint speak to her n was dying to talk to her. i answered the call with lots of happiness. the sight of her name on my mobile has given me lil energy, after listening to her voice i felt much better. thanks to 'ro' n for brilliant ideas. she's put me n sah.. on tele-conference. i felt wot has happened to my fate.. all of a sudden. i spoke to my best pals all at a time,n for hours 2gether. i could see them on webcam also. thanks to the technology thanks to ro. after speaking to them i felt quite normal.thanks to swats, trin, ro and sah who worked as medicines n made me feel better. i love u all. n vamsi i'm still missing u miserably.
also i thank 'god' u dint wait for a long time r else...i'm afraid even to imagine wot wud have happened to me, if u'd taken more time. u r smart but slow. :P

i'm a slow learner

It was psychology class, that too after lunch(u got the whole picture, right??).... most of the faces were sleepy, some trying hard to respond to my lecturers questions n I was trying not to respond/ans so that the class can be ended abruptly n then even i can join the sleeping community.

the lecture was about 'growth n development'. sir was trying his best to keep us all awake n active by making it interactive. he asked us a question...."we know that animals, wen they give birth, the new borns immediately stand, try to walk n within no time they start playing; whereas we human beings take a lot of time...say about an year/ two to perform same kinda activities. why do you think it is like that in animals n the other way in humans?". there was no response as many were fast asleep n others were unwilling to answer as they really dunno the answer and rest(including me) kept quite as we're almost at the threshold of the dreamworld.
he repeated the question. there was no real change in the students behavior, he asked again in a different tone....stressing on "why??tell me why??"
at that moment sans was almost getting into trans state and his question..for the 1st two-times sounded like a lullaby and accelerated me to fall asleep. the sudden change in the tone disturbed n caused us a great irritation n to my surprise every1 opened their eyes and suddenly turned their heads towards me as if that stupid question was for me. i hate wen ppl stare at me n i thought i shd answer this to as to avoid that highly irritating situation. i cleared my throat and with wide open eyes, lots of emotion in the tone(preparing myself to be thrashed out of the class for i was sure that ppl wud definitely mistake me) i answered "because we're slow learners!!!"
as expected...my sir responded.. "what??". I replied by reducing the volume but with same tone n innocent face..."yes sir, it's because we human beings are slow learners!!".
oh my gosh. guys over there!!expect the unexpected!!!
i was startled to learn that the whole class including my sir started laughing and clapping. my sir said "it's a really gud1".
gud answer/ gud joke? lol. :P
howeva, at that moment i was feeling gud becoz i was not thrashed out of the class, ppl received it positively, no1 has mistaken me and everyone woke up with a smile that turned out to be a long lasting laughter. i again dint like ppl staring at me while laughing and clapping. it caused me a lil bit of uneasiness and i turned my eyes towards the bench with a genuine smile.
sir was actually happy that evryone in the class woke up n he continued the class and was writing on the board. he knew that i was looking at him(dese days i'm sitting in the first bench..ya ya out of my policy..but circumstances are like that), suddenly he turned to me n said "yeah, you are absolutely right, we are all slow learners".
at that moment guess what must me going in my mind?? :P "kudos sans!" \m/

1 in 2

sometimes wen i closely observe my friends, teachers, family members and even strangers i feel how come i feel the same as the opposite person does...

i used to have gud friend. i used to feel that '1 soul 2 bodies' and used to call him my soul-mate. ..huh but lately i realised that i was wrong. now i dont have that feeling for him nor that friend. i was wrong.

i used to feel '1 mind 2 brains' weneva i used to see a classmate of mine who's equally steadfast in working out problems/ given tasks. now am not in contact with that gal.

i used to feel and i still have the same feeling for my friend (whose name i don't want to disclose here) that we have '1 spirit 2 lives'.

i was just going thru a blog of another friend, wer she has written her feelings and wot she wud do if she's given 24hrs time b4 death n all that...and she has listed there almost all of my feelings. i was only wondering if all the gals feel the same or only my feelings match with hers was a mere coincidence...now wots the 1 in 2 here. '1 feeling,2 bloggers'{..pj lol.}

but all these 1 in 2's are just co incidences and they last only for certain amount of time and they keep on changing. they change as we grow n develop. growth and development are optional. it depends from person to person. wot say?

wen i was writing the 1st few lines of this post, i remembered what i wanted to write few days back but havent yet written. and am not going to write it anymore because i changed my mind. i wanted to write on '1ego 2ppl'. but i dont have the ego. i broke it. it's only 1 ego and and 1 person. lol.

aah..chalo enuf of my bakwaas. gottu go for lunch.
cya. bi.

PS: can any1 temme... wer's/wots meant by... '1 body 2 lives'?

2012 @ sans

heavy rains @ twin planets called my eyes.
thunderstorms @ revolutionary centre called my head
active volcanoes @ paradise called my heart
poisoned bullets @ every cell of my body...

feeling the 2012 effect within...
I FEAR IF SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN TO MY INNER CHILD WHO IS ALMOST KILLED AND IS STRUGGLING TO SURVIVE....
living with just a hope that i can handle myself (though difficult), survive @ any crisis and adopting more patience and bravery.
craving for the utmost 'INNER PEACE'....

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talk when u walk

the tal guy abhishek bacchan promotes the cause 'walk wen u talk' in the idea mobile services ad..this tall gal sans is promoting the cause 'talk wen u walk'. yeah here is a chance to talk of few gud things to do n while we r doing. here is a chance to walk for a noble cause. click on WALK for more details.
thanks to my friend sugeetha for mailing me this link and making my day start with a gud cause n its promotion.
i see my blog is silent these days. no readers/ followers are around. yet am posting this with a small hope that some1 from hyd, accidentally reads this posts and finds it informative n useful.

thnaks a bunch.
see u around.....