I think it's the toughest jobbbb...

i think it's really very tough to keep a secret. how many of u can keep secret?? i always share atleast with any one of my friends. recently i've realized something and thought that i should keep it to myself and not to share it with any of my closest pals. few of them are trying to guess but are failing. lol. there's psychic fun in telling frns and asking them to make guesses and not revealing it. i know am bad in this regard...
huh believe me...it's real tough situation that am facing to keep it to myself. i thought i'll post it in my secret blog. damn it i forgot the password and unable to trace it. it just skipped out of my mind because i'vent used/posted for a long time. buhuhu...:((
I'll see for how long i can keep it..
planning to keep it for life time..hmm gud news is it's slowly sinking it to me..
:P :P

A New Channel 2 Find Happiness..!!$$$!!

Emotions are so exhausting!! I dunno about others..sometimes I can't express many of my feelings and emotions to few friends fearing if i'll lose them. it's only my assumption. i know they'll never leave me...they accept me the way i'm. but still there is sothing in the corner of my heart and mind that keeps me pulling me back n warns me ..'hey hello..watch out..'. aaah.
When this type of things happen i feel bad and ask myself 'why me??'. then suddenly i remember there are few other ppl to cheer me up. my new students. yeah..I was recently given 4 new children with learning disabilities and slow learners and 2 new children with mental retardation. i've already started teaching these 4 ld & sl kids. they are such lovely n cute chutkus. their age range is 9-15. the 15 yrs young boy doing 9th reminds me of my ex-student in many ways. they are in no way comparison with each other. one is extremely soft and cheerful and the other is extremely lovable and adorable. but the intimacy i've built with my ex-student..i'm unable to build this time because of various reasons like time, space, vagera vagera.
it's good that i've really studied a lil bit for my exams and able to apply it during my practicals and may be this simple logic n secret is making stand at 1st position in my class and makes me feel proud of myself and my students. i dunno whether my students ever realize that're really lucky to get sans as their special educator/ teacher. they've got the best. i'm doing my best and am getting the same result. hmmm i'm lovin it. the sad part about this is my practical classes are about to get over in a week. i'll miss them. we have practical only from tue-friday. these children make very sad faces on friday's as they wont be able to see me n attend my classes till tuesday. even i feel same for them. unknowingly i think i'm creating attchment with them. i've learnt a lesson from my past teaching experience that i shdn't become so close and create so much of intimacy with students. it's so painful to leave them and to move on. the memories r really killingly painful. well..coming back to present...sans is really enjoying this teaching-learning practice to the best and getting same results. i wish i get some more time to do some more efforts to go beyond lil best if possible..
hehehehe lil greedy huh"?????

see you again..tc..enjoying blogging.

my latest crush

hehehe....i'm feeling very shy n strange. i like it n i don't. totally confused.
few things are making go crazy dese days are listed below...note:not all :P(so in case if u've any guesses/expectations u may not find them here... :p)

1. farmville on facebook...
2. 4 songs on my music xpress.
3. few blogs..of mine n others..i'm reading again n again
4. party mood..:P
5. my new students...
6. going for drives
7. few songs lyrics. this one..am feeling so strange...u know i hate reading..but am reading few songs lyrics like mad
8. n many more.... :P
ishh gup chup.

PS:i know this is something dumb...but still am posting.

spendin some time for n wid u...

i dont understand sometimes i become so sick and feel too damn lonely..that moment time n life seem to be absolutely sucking. i hate it.
i was thinking that most of my best friends (girls) are married and one is about to get married.
Amritha, Rohini, and now Sahithi.
thanks to Sugeetha's and my parents for sparing us with some more sucking time than........(content supressed)......

I was seriously thinking that all those who are married are away from me now then how can i spend time with them.
then i suddenly remembered this pending tag.
this tag is done in the name of ro(i promised her long back) asuming that i'm telling her and for her.

RULES: Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

1.What is your current obsession? FRIENDS

2. What are you wearing today? Night dress.

3. What’s for dinner? Should as hostel mess in-charge. i don't have any clue. :(

4. What’s the last thing you bought? hmmm..on diwali: flowers to decorate rangoli. :P

5. What are you listening to right now? My Inner Voice

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? Friends Forever :)

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Opposite to any beach n beside all my friends houses. \m/

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? Sound sleep, non-stop electric power, cool n uncrowded places to hangout in the evenings. :P

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? 1. delhi..to see amrita, 2. vizag to see kids at santhi ashram, 3. dreamland to see my db.

10. Which language do you want to learn? american sign language, tamil n arabic

11. What’s your favourite quote? Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man. ~Rabindranath Tagore

12. Who do you want to meet right now? vamsi..he told me that he wanna reveal a secret....hoo am so excited. he left me clueless..but it seems it's very funny. waiting eagerly for the evening to come soon. :P

13. What is your favourite colour? PINK

14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet? a new pink and white satin top that i bought casually at globus turned out be my hottest clothing. i wear it almmost 3-4 times a week. heights of craziness??

15. What is your dream job? Dream job means the job we do in our dreams??hahha gud1. i like it. simple..romance with db. if in reality.. it's being a special educator.

16. What’s your favourite magazine? dumb q. i hate reading. so no place for magazines in my life.

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? 1. would like to buy membership at Dyslexia association of andhra pradesh(DAAP), 2. nice handbag, cool capries, stylish n trendy anklets...hey i think the obvious answer will be Accessories and clothing.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? :( i dunno.

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? too many to list. eg., bipasha basu,

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer? I recently got my hair permanent straightening. lol it turned out t be a disaster. but i'm comfortable in this.

21. What are you going to do after this? get ready n go out with frns.

22. Who is your favourite sport star? what? lol. :P no1.

23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without? 1.local made surma, that i bought at charminar. 2. kajal stick gifted by a pakistani frn of my sis. 3. peach coloured n flavoured lip gloss.

24. What inspires you? realism n practicality.

25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you: 1. always wear a smile. smile should reflect from your eyes as well. 3. attitude n body language count more than wot u wear. \m/ bindaas.
26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)? continue to wear wot i wore that moment...i dont swaet at all. so no problems. lucky me.

27. Coffee or tea? Tea. tEa teA. teteteeeee

28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? 1. lock n cry inside the washroom. 2. wash face come out. 3. switch on music, eat n then call some friend.

29. What is the meaning of your name? Peace. ppl say it's a misnomer for me.

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting? All those that I follow. ..

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? all sweets except mosore pak. all i cecreams.

32. Favorite Season? winters. :P

33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? just 2 minutes... maggie noodles.

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? just give them away back properly in the public. show ur attitude that they havent ever seen/ heard of before.

35. What do you love most about yourself? patience, innocence, kiddish yet high levels of maturity. my attitude.

36. what is that you think most about? i mostly think about my career.

i am supposed to add a question. hmm.. my question being

37. why is this tag so lengthy? :P

huh....at last..finished baba. this is a cool tag. thnx 2 ro. it was like talking to u while answering this tag. had a nice time.
see you all soon.

i'm tagging:swats,
cs,
arpita,
ab,
swat
sugandha
ekam
pulkit

aah. this tagging part took really very long time. done!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

The bird a nest, the spider a web, man friendship. ~William Blake
(source)
I just love u ....Vamsi,Trinath,Sugeetha and Pavan.
Festivals are like most awaited days for many. i don't wait for them. for me every moment with these guys is a well celebrated festival. When a real festival celebrated with real friends is just beyond heavens.
This diwali... celebrating with my friends was something that i really dint expect and/or plan for. but it turned out to be a sweetest n pleasant unexpected surprise cum memory. this great feeling of mine can't be expressed in words..as am falling short of words. even my grandiloquent friends chaitu and ro would fall short of words if i ask them for.

dese days because of work pressure am finding very lil time to spend with my frns. though am in regular touch with them over fones..it makes grt difference to meet them and talk to them than talking over fones.
thanks to my college for giving me a week time to freakout with my frns. holidays are just so important and they just disappear in no time. it's ok.. it has left me with an ocean full of sweet memories.
i feel my friends are like ideal family members. the understandings we have, the way we celebrate, freak out, plan, share,taking time, deal things is just awesome. thank god..for creating such lovely relations."unconditional".

I can sacrifice anything for them.
this diwali morning i wasn't reaaly feeling welll. had no mood n spirit to celebrate. i met vamsi in the evening. we went to meet trinath. it was just a random thought of celebrating together. in no time all the gang members met and .......

oh god i dont understand wer from i got so much of energy to jump, run and play while firing crackers. it's been a real long time i dint fire crackers. as i took resolution along with some other chuddy buddies not to fire crackers. but i had to break my resolutions. i dint feel bad at all to do so as i had to cheer myself up and to keep up my frns spirits.
WE HAD SOLID GALA TIME. DIWALI WAS A BIG BLAST.
YUHOOO>>>> AM SO HAPPIEEEEEEEEEEEE......
I wish god bless us with such more n more happy moments and happy friendships.

Hope u all had grt diwali.
have a nice time.
lots of love
sans

Value Added Tag

Am just tagging a really touching, worth reading and thought provoking post of a blogger..
She's just awesome. wen i read the blog....i was just fuming out...blood boiled for a moment, thoughts flooded. but after few moments i came to real world, thought for a while and posted a comment on her blog for the same post.
Am a 'big fan' of hers and her blog. :)
Thanks to Ms. Suga.... for giving me permission with a positive attitude, to tag her post on my blog.
Read
Think
Act.

Click----->> 'Here'

choice is now just yours.....

This is one of the most favorite emails that i've been getting regularly and yes everytime i read it and fwd it. this time i thought i shd actually post on my blog so that those who read my blogs,who're not my frns list/adres book can read it.

What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended.. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.
Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do.
Where is the natural order of things in my son?'
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'
Then he told the following story:
Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'
Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart. The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.
In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.
The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over.
The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.
Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.
Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!
Run to first!'
Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.
He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'
Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball . the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.
He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'
Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!
Shay, run to third!'
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'
Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.
'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.
Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
AND NOW A LITTLE FOOT NOTE TO THIS STORY:
We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices, people hesitate.
The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.
If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren't the 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference.
We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.'
So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice:
Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?
A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.
You now have two choices:
1. Delete
2. Forward
May your day, be a Shay Day.

i believe in this >>>---------------->>>>