1-2-3 get set go

123rd post and am all set to go. go places? no i mean run away. lately i realized that i can not run away from ppl. i'm born to be haunted by ppl. i have no space in this world. i'm powerless. ppl dictate n rule me. i find evryone ruling deciding wot i shd do. dont i have any place to take any decisions? no one cares what i want. ppl dont ask me wot i want until i do something weird? ppl are so selfish. once in my lifetime, today i tried being selfish, i wanted to live for myself and tried to take out sometime. god damn it, such a pathetic fate mine is, i cant really escape anyone. suddenly...everyone around me look so scary. i dont feel like seeing, hearing, or touch them. am like liking wen they look, talk/touch me. it's highly irritating. wot signs are these?
i have completely lost my independence. wen i came to blr, i was happy, like neva before. i used to talk n share. now..? am scared to share, meet and participate. shd i see a doc? i think i'm retarding or is it i'm being forced to withdraw and retard?am so very badly pissed off. life is truly fucking.
ppl see only from their point of view. there is something called empathy. ppl hardly know abt it, even if known i wonder if they can understand it, and forget abt being empathetic.
ppl suggest without having complete information. i hate it. i hate myself.
I WANNA GIVE UP. I WANNA QUIT. I WANT AN END!