HEro

HE is my HEro........'HE' made me happy....I wanna try!
But HE is HEr's....... sHE made me sad.......I wanna cry!

past-present-future...tenses...

so many things have happened around in the last few days...am just jotting few..out of them

1) my exams are over and am no more a college-going student

2) i did all the exams really very well and few of those exams are real exams...i just loved them because i've done them well without any preparation.

3) now i dont have to see some faces, listen to few voices, meet some stupid souls everyday n anymore... because i've just said them 'good-bye'.

4) most awaited moments have come and few are still lasting and few others have just passed away very quickly....with a short notice.

5) sans has changed lil of her attitude and life style...becoz the time has come..sop

6) resolved not to share anything with few ppl for health (physical and mental) reasons of mine n theirs.

7) went to Bangalore to attend an interview and i've again fell in love with the city....aah i just love Bangalore.

8) @ blr few things have happened that shdnt have happened and few other things havent happened that shd have happened. yet am not upset..just wonder howcome...:P may be 'coz of (5) of this post.

9) adopting more n more 'silence'..'in inn inner peace' for the betterment of quality of life of the child i(n) me.

10) in the process of assessment-program planning- implementation- re-valuation of my goals

needs a chill pill

 I'm badly stressed out n fully pissed off.

my health fully spoiled and my spirit's truly dead. 

god am waiting for that minute to enjoy the finite.

let the exams be over and oh pls let me live forever.

it's insaity to live in the vertigo city

i dont want anyone now, to tackle it-i dunno how.

i'm fully shaken, my stamina and strengths-who has taken?

this feeling isnt groovy, n my life isnt jazzy

i dont need u any more...stress up on me dont u pour

go away go away,,,dont come again any other day

never even come belated...let me live isolated 

stress stress i hate u. i hate u stress, i hate u

i need a chill pill, or else stress will kill

its like a heavy rain, im talking about migraine

victim i have become, uninvited y do u come?

u r shown like an abrupt anger n fulfill ur longtime hunger.

these bloody exams...i wonder are for life or of life?

am not it's wife, then y am i in the hands of a knife?

nerves in my head r blowing out, just temme if it  is a curse?

i doubt if 2morow neva comes, i just wanna live it as soon as it comes.

y am i so sweet......open secrets!!!

Following are some of the sweets that i've been enjoying for a long time. i thought i shd share 'em with u al. They may or may not appear &/ or appeal much but are true sweets for the child (i)n me.

 

this one is drawn by me. i dont take risk by drawing human models.

 

this one is drawn by my student.....naah..he's 'the student'. he's my baby n sweetu. he's drawn it when i was taking class. we both succeeded..he's done multitasking..(attending my class, drawing n colouring). i love him.

this one is drwn by my gang member..1 of the 'fantastic-5'..by Mr. 'V'. he's drawn it in 1 of my note books and i used to c it in the class weneva i felt bored and learned to take risk to draw human models.

 

 This 1 drawing has worked as a real stressbuster. this has been drawn by 1 of the fantastic-5...he's.the great '3'. wen i saw this i could leave my work and laugh for a while..which i was badly craving for at that moment

. i truly love this.

 

This is by Mr.P another 1 from our fantastic-5. he has drwn this as a tp with no goal n no aim. this has inspired Mr.3 to draw the previous 1. thanks P for inspiring him. he's taken an initiative.

 

 This has been built by my students in 2 minutes. look at their creativity. i dint tell them to keep the teddy over there. they just saw it and added to the beauty. they are my sweet lil chutkoos.

 

 This clay model has been done by my students 'addu gadu' (as i call him) n 'shanti ma'am's choco pie' (as i call him) as a part of reinforcement activity.

This is a big clay model project. all the lil chutkoos from grades 3 n 4 (children with learning disabilities) have done this as part of activity reinforcement.

This is done by 'hydu baby' (as i call him) when i was teaching him parts of a plant. as a reinforcement activity we made pencils with clay after the class's done.

Am now badly longing for those sweet moments.....to play n educate the students with learning disabilities. i'm missing the fun n life very badly. huh.....summer get lost soon n wish for the schools to reopen asap.

hope u liked all of them. all n only appreciations n compliments are accepted for these sweets of mine. hope u understand.

ciya all in my next post. until then tc n keep blogging..

sans \m/

tell the remedy and help the needy!!

as i mentioned in one of my previous posts that 'a thing of beauty is a joy forever'... i see there are real admirers of beauty. i wonder how ppl admire beauty in every thing...living/ non living..kudos to 'em. on the other hand there are ppl who dont see beauty at all. they see only faults n mistakes in all things and ppl. they know only to criticize. i dont understand  y ppl criticize so much. i just wonder if at all they know there is something called 'appreciation'. if they donot  know / like to appreciate they have no rights to criticize! yeah?

i hate all those ppl who can't see goodness at all in any person....weras they can see any small mistake/ fault. this attitude or style of life i truly hate. huh....

ppl who admire..inspire me..but now wen i see ppl who criticize / who r just born to criticize...i'm afraid if they inspire me too...????

gaawd these crazy ppl really spoil me, my day n night. such ppl wen asked y d heck they bhave so.....wont b able to digest. these ppl seem to b having high levels of poisonous subs deposited all over their bodies..which is called 'super ego'. and some have 'complex' problems.

i really donot know how deal these ppl. i feel... it is far easy to deal my students..who are intellectually disabled. they dont have cognitive skills and have severe language and communication problems. yet i find it much easier to deal with such children.becoz  they 'try' (i have lots of respect n faith in this word 'try', it really works, have u ever tried?:)) to understand what we are trying to explain them.

i feel shame to see and call myself as an normal individual, wen these ppl with 'super ego' also fall under the normal category. it is really sad.

according to me these ppl aren't normal, not my children.(now my students appear absolutely normal and easy). these ppl shd have spl doctors and trainers to deal with their ego and complex problems. the biggest  problem is they dont suggestions becoz they are always on top of the world, they feel king size n hence they can only give but not take suggestions.

who can help them? i strongly feel that they need to be helped? but who can help them? if they are not corrected, becoz of 'em ppl around them get upset n badly effected. their attitudes are so. yeah, attitude is a lil thing dat makes a big difference! (i dint say, winston churchill said). what say?

these ppl need to b given serious and immediate concern..just like global warming. both r slow but dangerously happening!

the only thing is that they have to understand that 'their behavior, attitude and ego hurts!'

there is no point is discussing much abt a problem. there shd be a remedy for this.

what can b the remedy? Tit-for-taT??

i admit i dont have guts to face such nuts. n i dont feel sorry to call them nuts..becoz der's nothing wrong in calling ppl by their real names....\m/

suggest some remedies dear readers....

cya...n stay away from such poisons...n stay healthy.

sans

there's a boy in my mind.....

There's a boy in my mind and he knows
I am thinking of him
all my way through the day and the night
stars shine above me

he's been gone for sum time
but I know I truly love him
and I am singing a song
hoping he'll be back when he hears it

my heart goes shalalala shalala in the morning
shalalala shalala in the sunshine
shalalala shalala in the evening
shalalala shalala just for you!


if your lucks gone away just like mine
you feel like crying
sing along maybe once
maybe twice lets try it together

sum sweet day no one knows you'll return and you'll be happy
shouting sweet in a song
listen to your heart it is singing

my heart goes shalalala shalala in the morning
shalalala shalala in the sunshine
shalalala shalala in the evening
shalalala shalala just for you!

connectivity....

 It's been around 20 days we (sans and swats) have shifted to a new apartments. we live in third floor and have a gud n huge balcony though it's not as beautiful as the one v used to have at vizag.. near the sea shore. but this one is quite good. 

The other day it slightly rained here at hyd. I stood in the balcony wen it was cloudy outside. it was cool n breezy. i loved the way the cool breeze touched me gently n made me feel cheerful n smile. till then i dint notice a thing of beauty...

i felt lucky to have eyes..to have them in working condition, i felt lucky to have a heart... a working heart, to have a brain,,, ya! a working 1(though lil slow comparatively in few aspects :P). 

i've den seen a connection. a connection that has wondered me to the core. i was just stuck. a spellbound-beautiful event which has touched me softly n mesmerized me.

the connections was between the two elements, one is finite and the other infinite. that's love and lovely too.

i saw the connection in the form of 'rain'. the connection between the finite earth and the infinite sky. the event was picturesque and lovely too. it's an event of love. it wasnt raining in my area den. it rained somewer 4km away from my apartments. thanks to my sis for taking a flat in the 3rd floor, else i'd have definitely missed this mind-blowing scene. i took a beautiful picture with my eyes. it's permanent pic n cant be lost or stolen. i can see n enjoy weneva n wereva i want. \m/

well i wanna talk abt the connections... not the internet/telephone.. but the connections of our lives.

this event has opened my 3rd eye/ inner eye. the connection is not just in the form of rain but in the form of space n air as well. the connection is there not just in between the sky n earth but there between the other elements as well. 

wen there exists a connection between non-living things that supports life... there shd be much more beautiful connections between the living beings that gets support from living n nonliving beings.

these connections can be between any1..mother, father, brother, sister, mainly friends and the special friends.

the connections shd be beautiful and bring about a realization to others. they shd stand as an inspiration, role model.

i dunno y, is it because i saw the rain, found it beautiful, and hence, wanting the connections between ppl to be so or wot...but am really feeling gud abt it.

i'm strongly n beautifully connected to my friends..esply the 'fantastic-5' (as we call our gang). 

the way we are connected inspires others. that's the beauty. it doesn't matter how well we are connected, all it matters is 'r v connected or not?'. staying connected with 'em makes me feel so joyful n enjoy every moment.

John!...you are right...'a thing of beauty is a joy forever!' u rock! 

Stay Connected... and enJOY the BEAUTY in everything we do n see (if possible).

\m/ om sans om \m/

Cya take care