alright

it's now all right. yeah. i got my blog right in my hands now. i'll no more bug my readers with sorrow filled posts.
u will see only happy posts henceforth.
cya.

alwrite

am not feeling alright. am missing my secret blog. its such bugging procedure to start a new blog again. duh. it's not alright to write everything here. this is public. i need privacy to write all that i want. wanna just say u honey... I MISS U so much. will MISS U badly.

gods must be crazy...

When v r to travel long distances in an overcrowded bus, v find it painful; imagine there's a traffic jam / flat tire, v feel that v shd b home as early as possible, the situations appears to be pathetic. this happens once/ twice/only few times for most of us.

if this kinda situation arises in a journey called friendship, how will it be? miserable and awful right? this kinda things are 'happenings' of my life in the recent past. wen everything seems to be cool n pleasant wen i was thinking of all my (girl) friends who are now married and wen i was feeling thankful for my (boy) friends for being boys for being left out as singles...this guy..i mean this good seems to be very crazy to play video games with my life. i think he's trying to tell me that he can seperate me from my friends no matter it's a boy/gal. lol.

in one of my previous posts i was talking about my frns of whom vamsi happens to be closest of all. i've never explained or told him how much important he's to me and what grt role he's played in my life. am not sure if he knows it or not. i just cant express my gratitude n love(i used this word with an intention to explain how much affection i've but not talking of the love that leads to marriage or other stuff that i hate) for him in words. ishd sy that only he knows maximum abt me. nearly 95%.(u see am keeping secrets, these days).

i always feel very proud of our friendship coz the understanding v have is the BEST. till now the journey was really SAFE, extremely comfortable and cool.

i was thanking god for giving him some time, as he's the only person who's sparing time from all of my busiest best friends.

now there is twist in the story. this crazy god can't see me really happy hanging around. he's now given a really good opportunity for my dearest friend at Delhi. so he's moving there in a couple of weeks. i dont understand whether i've to feel happy for him and for his growth in his career or feel bad for v r getting apart. the thought of vamsi leaving me, my gang n hyd itself is killing. i dunno how am i going to act n react in the next few days n in the near future. but it's a terrible moment for me. my mind is full of random memories n thoughts. it was full of migraine head ache till the moment i got this news. but this news is more painful. it pains not just in the head but also somewer deep in my heart that cant be healed by any medicine. i hate to go with the old saying 'only time will heal problems'..huh.so abstract.

woteva... i remember my mummy's golden words. 'woteva happens, happens for a good reason and v have to look for the goodness in it.' so i shd see the way my frn is growing up in his cereer and welcome the change and accept the fate as it comes.
now that i've got enough unfair twists .. ithink i shd get habituated to these twists and dust off with the crazy god's attitudes and go on.
hmmmmmm. lemme take a deeep breathe.......


awww. am now feeling much better after writing this. am sure there'll be many grammatical mistakes and spelling errors. i dont want to go back and read woteva i've written. let it be like that and let me enjoy this moment of change. wen pain is inevitable, enjoy it.

u ppl pls take care. i'll see u again.
loads of love
sans.

you cant escape my love..

(You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love)

Here's how it goes, you and me, up and down at this time
We'll get right, where to fight
Cause love is something you can't shake
When it breaks
All it takes is some trying

If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna make you stay
Soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love

So if you go
You should know
It's hard to just forget the past to pass
It was good, it was bad but it was real
And that's all you get in the end of the matter

Here's how it goes
All it takes is some trying
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love

PS: no comments. i just copy pasted the lyrics coz i'm listening to this song right now n love the lyrics..
thnks to enrique

BrainstorM is for lifetime...???!!!!

Children learn by imitation and adults unlearn by impressions. I've learnt this at many instances in this small journey called my life. there are really equal number of bitter memories n happiest ones. but the impact of the bitter ones dominate the happy n sweet memories.

have u ever heard of ABC?? ABC in psychology i mean. i dunno how many of my readers have psychology bkg..but every one should know abt it. ABC= Antecedent->Behavior->Consequence. i hope u got a rough pic from this flow diagram. The universal fact is that every behavior has an antecedent n consequence. there lies a great curiosity n importance to know the antecedents of any1s behavior (be it others/ 1s own). i just wonder how many of us look for antecedents of unfavorable or aversive behavior of ours/ other? there will be a great psychologist in every one of us whom v neva realize n use properly. a fraction of second all it takes to think before we act/ behave. 'our behavior not just reflects us..it creates an impression on others mind too'. many ignorant minds n rebellion attitudes just don't bother about any of these 2 above mentioned partners of behaviors. so as a consequence they end up with least number of happy memories n maximum number of enemies n bitter memories.

of late i've been watching this type of freaks. they neva know how they behave. wen told they cant digest. neither they realize nor they can accept suggestions / bare truths about them. frustration and its sister emotions called irritation n depressions become their ultimatum. pitiable souls / pathetic lives? wot to say? and they funniest part about these ppl is they talk n gossip about others behavior.

now why am i talking about all these crappy nuisance ppl..? it's because as i told in my earlier posts that there is a child in everyone of us...i fear ppl who watch them/live with them will also become so by imitating them unknowingly.sob sob.
another important point to be noted is impressions. everyone of use crave for being praised for our acheivements, hard work, efforts, ideas n so on. when u put all of these in ur work 100% n even more than this percent yet if your behavior is not satisfactory/appealing/convincing/pleasing. all the above mentioned +ve side of yours will directly be thrown in to a dustbin/ garbage. \m/kudos. wot say?

wish i find a poster of this type to do BM (behavior modification) for some 'mentally ill' adults. :P lol.

haa. enuf of psychology class n brainstorm. may be i couldn't explain it well here... but my psycho sir..as we call him with love, taught us this 'bare fact' in a fantabulous way. i just love it. hope u all had a happy weekend. have a nice week ahead.

gud luck n pls take care.

time to brk up

Maybe I'm addicted,
I'm out of control,
but you're the drug
that keeps me from dying.
Maybe I'm a liar,
but all I really know is
you're the only reason I'm trying.

I am wasted away,
I made a million mistakes.
Am I too late?
There is a storm in my head;
Naaa Na Na na, Nannaa na na naa.........

buhuhooo.. sob sob.
I've lost so much of wealth n so interest ultimately.
hmmm...yeah..btw am am talking about my farm @ facebook.
today morning by mistake i've clicked on a wrong button n lost 30,000 coins. i was saving money to buy a tractor and slowly expand farm. but this new storage application bugged me to the core. there is no cancel option. here. so i've no choice. i had lost huge amount. i got pissed off and so took a wild resolution. hey hold on. i'm not swearing to stop playing fv. i've sold all the material i had and ploughed the land completely. now i ve only living things and my fav bike on my farm i've cleared rest all crap.

so sick....

am so sick..i dont medicines wen am not well n i pray god that i recover soon. so dumb huh? but 1 grt thing i attain by doing this is lots of patience and 1 grt thing that i lose is time. today am feeling pathetic. am down with high fever n severe body pains with few more extra bonanza offers like running nose, mild headache, watery eyes and loose grip. i tried sleeping in the evening but cudn't fall asleep because i have to submit many things tomorrow. am sure this fever will come down in case i don't finish the work. if i finish the work then it will not leading to disappointment.
I'm so confused at this moment am feeling so bad n lonely...my sissy went to vizag..i have no choice..i have to stay back in the hostel. buhuhu.. i'm feeling like pathetic. i need some hugs...