gods must be crazy...

When v r to travel long distances in an overcrowded bus, v find it painful; imagine there's a traffic jam / flat tire, v feel that v shd b home as early as possible, the situations appears to be pathetic. this happens once/ twice/only few times for most of us.

if this kinda situation arises in a journey called friendship, how will it be? miserable and awful right? this kinda things are 'happenings' of my life in the recent past. wen everything seems to be cool n pleasant wen i was thinking of all my (girl) friends who are now married and wen i was feeling thankful for my (boy) friends for being boys for being left out as singles...this guy..i mean this good seems to be very crazy to play video games with my life. i think he's trying to tell me that he can seperate me from my friends no matter it's a boy/gal. lol.

in one of my previous posts i was talking about my frns of whom vamsi happens to be closest of all. i've never explained or told him how much important he's to me and what grt role he's played in my life. am not sure if he knows it or not. i just cant express my gratitude n love(i used this word with an intention to explain how much affection i've but not talking of the love that leads to marriage or other stuff that i hate) for him in words. ishd sy that only he knows maximum abt me. nearly 95%.(u see am keeping secrets, these days).

i always feel very proud of our friendship coz the understanding v have is the BEST. till now the journey was really SAFE, extremely comfortable and cool.

i was thanking god for giving him some time, as he's the only person who's sparing time from all of my busiest best friends.

now there is twist in the story. this crazy god can't see me really happy hanging around. he's now given a really good opportunity for my dearest friend at Delhi. so he's moving there in a couple of weeks. i dont understand whether i've to feel happy for him and for his growth in his career or feel bad for v r getting apart. the thought of vamsi leaving me, my gang n hyd itself is killing. i dunno how am i going to act n react in the next few days n in the near future. but it's a terrible moment for me. my mind is full of random memories n thoughts. it was full of migraine head ache till the moment i got this news. but this news is more painful. it pains not just in the head but also somewer deep in my heart that cant be healed by any medicine. i hate to go with the old saying 'only time will heal problems'..huh.so abstract.

woteva... i remember my mummy's golden words. 'woteva happens, happens for a good reason and v have to look for the goodness in it.' so i shd see the way my frn is growing up in his cereer and welcome the change and accept the fate as it comes.
now that i've got enough unfair twists .. ithink i shd get habituated to these twists and dust off with the crazy god's attitudes and go on.
hmmmmmm. lemme take a deeep breathe.......


awww. am now feeling much better after writing this. am sure there'll be many grammatical mistakes and spelling errors. i dont want to go back and read woteva i've written. let it be like that and let me enjoy this moment of change. wen pain is inevitable, enjoy it.

u ppl pls take care. i'll see u again.
loads of love
sans.