how do you feel today???

i'm so lazy, i've thought of posting this an year back when i joined the school. i've downloaded a picture from google images and pasted one on my quarters door and the other in my work place. children loved it and teachers too. and the teachers took copies of it. i never know that it'll become a hot cake. then i thought i should paste on my blog and see the feedback.
what do u think it is???
it's a big thing. it makes a big difference.
paste this picture on the wall with a plain white sheet next to it, try to place it next to the switch board of ur bedroom. every night before going to sleep just jot down how you felt that day. at the end of the week/ month (at ur convenience) just count n chk for urselves abt ur feelings.

success stories:
1) a student of mine always used to show anger for everything. he never know how to express happiness. i took a mirror and asked him to immatate the feelings/expressions of this picture one after the other. he did. i told him, that he looked handsome when he was wearing a smile..the HAPPY feeling. even he accepted. he started slowly giving smile to other teachers and students. a small trial.

2) another student of mine who always used to feel guilty(he's child with learning disability so had to bear insults from teachers and peers) all the time. i've shown his face in the mirror with guilty expression. he gradually reduced show that feeling.

the advantage of being a special educator is that you can have a mirror in the class room. it works a lot. it helps in teaching social skills and self help skills. when we look at the mirror we see so many things. good and bad. good to keep it up and bad to be corrected. how many of us realise.
one good thing is that few intelligent people see the other side of themselves, both good and bad. but how many correct them?
it may sound as if i'm taking a psychology class for many..but am only telling my experiences.

coming back to the topic....how do u feel today? what do u feel about this picture??
am actually planning to paste it in my classroom for all those who show that stupid jealous feeling most of the time.
:) sans.

I miss u.....

These days I've been missing many people. few very important friends, a lecturer, few students, a very dear one, and for a long time I've been missing one very important person from whom I should say I've learnt maximum. this post is about that person whom i miss a lot and i'll be missing forever.

My granny, who is as soft as a petal, has taught me many things and i have learnt many things from her. if i have to say that i've won patience, it's just because of her.
Even at the age of 91 she used to cook, clean her house, water the plants, fast for the well being of her children and their children and grandchildren.
A very healthy, intelligent, smart young lady she was, never troubled any one and no complaints. A role model for women and grandma's.

I used to share so many things with her and even she used to share a lot and many secrets which she couldn't share even with her daughters. From these secrets I've learnt so much about life and culture and the value of a woman and how precious she is. she said that 'a woman is always one man's property'. so meaningful and truthful fact. this very thing remains in my mind, and alarms me whatever i do. it stops me from doing mistakes. it makes me to be genuine. and so am happy. i'm happy because am genuine and i'm real.

Dear granny i miss u, and i'm still unable to digest that it's been 3years that you left us all alone. in almost every conversation with dad I remember u. u were like a mother not just to dad even to me. we miss u. you are the goddess of truthfulness and sincerity. the stories u narrated will be remembered forever. the 'Ram puja' you used to perform was so powerful. your faith and belief in god is just outstanding. u'll be remembered for ever not just by me n our family but also by my friends and their families. u r great.i love u n i miss u so much. hope u r happy serving god and ur dream come true.


Sans
:( :(

dance or trance

i dunno wot's happening with me...

it started last evening at around 5pm,when i got the news...till now am unable to come under my control. am just happy. happy to the fullest. i want this feeling to last forever.
i dunno whether it's my success or his. my student passed. he actually gave a big slap to all those teachers who rejected to teach him. very few teachers believed in him..and among them first stands this child sans. ppl just laughed at me and i still remember that moment when they said my student will never pass and i should quit trying. now it's my turn...i laugh at all those ppl who dint believe in me and my student. they criticized him. they never understood his difficulties, frustrated him, humiliated him. he came to me to show show that frustration in the form of temper tantrums. there were times when i felt like dying. everyday counseling myself and him.

this slowly lead to a strong bond from a very miserable relationship between us. sharing secrets and sorrows. fun and frolic. i dunno whether he ever realized that i taught him science in the form of gossips and that was my way of teaching. he loved that gossip and i loved the way he was learning. i miss it. i miss him. even he must be.

we haven't spoken to each other..it's been months. i wanna congratulate him. he dint turn up till now.

should i celebrate the happiness of his passing the 1st major hurdle...or should i long till he calls...
my mind is not under control. nostalgia.

i bunked my colez today..am sure some1 will comment me today.. 'body present mind absent' lol.
i don't want any stimulus. i'm just enjoying this trance state of mine.

1 big thing that's surprising me. my student did IGCSE grades 8,9 and 10 syllabus in just a span of 10 months.
Dear Iron-man(as i call him): ONLY U DID IT...AND ONLY U CAN DO IT. it's all ur hard work and belief,faith and dedication made u reach this. keep it up and continue crossing hurdles. remember!! this bony teacher(as he calls me) is always there to teach u, no matter whether it is science/maths , computers/commerce..... i'll learn and teach u as i used to. I love you POPEYE... ur's truly OLIVE

dancing like no1 is watching..... :) :( X(

Click on the image.

I dance just like the title... and i like it. i like when people do the same way. all well, but when something else dances like this i just don't like it. i had to like few things see dancing like words n spaces. now I'm hating when the lines are dancing. it's just a disaster.

I remembered yesterday a student of mine...he read polythene as hypoleteen. Everthing's is there but jumbled. it dint make sense. i corrected him. but in the exams, who will???

yesterday i was taking a test on FB. I was shocked to read...'fuckish brand'. what the heck?? i couldn't understand n relate it to the context. i went back n tried reading it again. It's 'blackish brown' and in the next line 'fun' is written. there!! now the lines are also dancing. oh my!! what does it mean by 'emit is passing by'???confused?? it's 'time is passing by'....these lines, spaces and the letters are just dancing as if no1 is watching. i hate this dance.

Readers Digest

Two things...that I felt should be universally accepted are...

1) no child should be criticized.
2) there's a child in everyone.

what say???

twisters in 24 hours

15th evening it started to spread all over my mind like a slow poison...the depression and i was becoming a maniac. so many things were going on in my mind....will be i able to get a seat. NO. how can I? waiting list-4. there are no 4 fools in this world to make me feel lucky by not joining the course. I was thinking that in case if parents (any) wanna show their children an example for the most unluckiest creature..they use my pic. I was prepared to attend the counseling on 16th morning. damn sure that i will not get a seat and that very thought is making me burst out into tears. was controlling for a long time. i saw my sis falling in to a gentle slumber. then i got into position. placed my head in between pillows n started my secret tp. cried badly for 2 hrs. den i thought... i'm so bad n mean. unfit n hopeless.i'm a big disaster on the earth. i thought i should jump from the building and die. sick n low.

okay..will see in the morning. i woke up, got ready, was wearing a fake smile infront of my sis. she was also too tensed but was gave me boost sayin' don't worry if u don't get a seat. may be sth else better than dis is written in your destiny'. omg.what???i dint write any other exam. i dint apply for any other job. mind blocked:road blocked again. no destination, nothing.

i called up a frn of mine(dis guy is the one to whom i wrote n dedicated the 1st poem/post in my blog), he came along with me. as we reached the counseling hall, it was almost full. thanks to sans frn sans(i call him sans)..he was filling courage and hope in me and giving life to my deaden spirits. my number was called for my surprise. everyone was interviewed for just 5-10 mins. mine was for more than 20 mins but it was just awesome. wen i came out they told me u can pay the fees. OH Ghosh. thunders. unbelievable!! huh...a big twist in a fraction of second.

the poison vanished. (felt as if sans took rebirth) smiles appeared and wings appeared. started flying. reached excited stated from ground state. extremism huh?? i know. even sans was telling me dat he got scared to see my tensed face. My dad, frns, sis everyone took tension. and i was receiving calls on my mobile continuously from all my well wishers, i remembered my bday. traffic jam:network jam.

huh...lovely wonderful, splendid. world outside is colorful. am just flying. this flight will definitely last till my BEd final exam results. whether they'll be cut off or become strong enough to fly higher and higher..gottu wait and see for another 1o months.....

thanks to all my well wishers. love u all loads.

dreams unlimited.....

dreams are like the sky- unlimited, like the water-unstable, like a drug addiction....and so on

Without leaps of imagination, or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all, is a form of planning.....said someone.

such plans of mine are as follows....
1) build a special school..a very big1 with grt faculty...it should be like utopia....
2) meet my dreamboy...love him and live with him, the same way i see him in my dreams
3) learn classical music....i know it's a ud joke....but dreams
4) learn classical dance....ppl advised me...and i liked it...
5) fulfill my parents dreams.....lol no scope for mine...and am dreaming about my parents...
5) i should put on weight...another great-tough but possible dream
6) all my best friends should live in one street after getting married. we all girls shd sit and gossip for hours together and husbands...i mean the 'choco pies' when they return from office should cook sth delicious for us to eat and get energy so that we continue our gossips and stay healthy.
7) have pets like lion, giraffe..etc n play with them wen i come back home after a tiring day.
8) and so on...

Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living......

dreams....some are real and some aren't. it's all about enjoyment. i dream with eyes open and eyes closed. i dream wen i sleep and even wen i don't. it's all just dreams...keep dreaming...and i wish atleast one of my dreams come true...:)