15th evening it started to spread all over my mind like a slow poison...the depression and i was becoming a maniac. so many things were going on in my mind....will be i able to get a seat. NO. how can I? waiting list-4. there are no 4 fools in this world to make me feel lucky by not joining the course. I was thinking that in case if parents (any) wanna show their children an example for the most unluckiest creature..they use my pic. I was prepared to attend the counseling on 16th morning. damn sure that i will not get a seat and that very thought is making me burst out into tears. was controlling for a long time. i saw my sis falling in to a gentle slumber. then i got into position. placed my head in between pillows n started my secret tp. cried badly for 2 hrs. den i thought... i'm so bad n mean. unfit n hopeless.i'm a big disaster on the earth. i thought i should jump from the building and die. sick n low.
okay..will see in the morning. i woke up, got ready, was wearing a fake smile infront of my sis. she was also too tensed but was gave me boost sayin' don't worry if u don't get a seat. may be sth else better than dis is written in your destiny'. omg.what???i dint write any other exam. i dint apply for any other job. mind blocked:road blocked again. no destination, nothing.
i called up a frn of mine(dis guy is the one to whom i wrote n dedicated the 1st poem/post in my blog), he came along with me. as we reached the counseling hall, it was almost full. thanks to sans frn sans(i call him sans)..he was filling courage and hope in me and giving life to my deaden spirits. my number was called for my surprise. everyone was interviewed for just 5-10 mins. mine was for more than 20 mins but it was just awesome. wen i came out they told me u can pay the fees. OH Ghosh. thunders. unbelievable!! huh...a big twist in a fraction of second.
the poison vanished. (felt as if sans took rebirth) smiles appeared and wings appeared. started flying. reached excited stated from ground state. extremism huh?? i know. even sans was telling me dat he got scared to see my tensed face. My dad, frns, sis everyone took tension. and i was receiving calls on my mobile continuously from all my well wishers, i remembered my bday. traffic jam:network jam.
huh...lovely wonderful, splendid. world outside is colorful. am just flying. this flight will definitely last till my BEd final exam results. whether they'll be cut off or become strong enough to fly higher and higher..gottu wait and see for another 1o months.....
thanks to all my well wishers. love u all loads.
okay..will see in the morning. i woke up, got ready, was wearing a fake smile infront of my sis. she was also too tensed but was gave me boost sayin' don't worry if u don't get a seat. may be sth else better than dis is written in your destiny'. omg.what???i dint write any other exam. i dint apply for any other job. mind blocked:road blocked again. no destination, nothing.
i called up a frn of mine(dis guy is the one to whom i wrote n dedicated the 1st poem/post in my blog), he came along with me. as we reached the counseling hall, it was almost full. thanks to sans frn sans(i call him sans)..he was filling courage and hope in me and giving life to my deaden spirits. my number was called for my surprise. everyone was interviewed for just 5-10 mins. mine was for more than 20 mins but it was just awesome. wen i came out they told me u can pay the fees. OH Ghosh. thunders. unbelievable!! huh...a big twist in a fraction of second.
the poison vanished. (felt as if sans took rebirth) smiles appeared and wings appeared. started flying. reached excited stated from ground state. extremism huh?? i know. even sans was telling me dat he got scared to see my tensed face. My dad, frns, sis everyone took tension. and i was receiving calls on my mobile continuously from all my well wishers, i remembered my bday. traffic jam:network jam.
huh...lovely wonderful, splendid. world outside is colorful. am just flying. this flight will definitely last till my BEd final exam results. whether they'll be cut off or become strong enough to fly higher and higher..gottu wait and see for another 1o months.....
thanks to all my well wishers. love u all loads.
7 comments:
You adorable girl.. There is still a lot of childhood innocence left in you than I imagined..
Hey whats this sicko talk about jumping down buildings? At your age(and weight, might I add) the only thing you should be jumping from/on is a soft bed or sofa. Don't you ever dare talk like that..
Success is moving from failure to failure. If you give up every time you meet failure then, there will never be any scope for success at all..
If you want things to work out, you got to believe in yourself first babe..
I may crib and rant about my Math and GRE and it might send shivers down my spine, but never once will I doubt myself when I am writing an exam or waiting for the result.
If your heart was in such turmoil, you should have said something yesterday to me.. didn't you think I would help you out?
I maybe across oceans, but I am still your friend and I care for you and I am always just a ping away...
So, now my dear,
let out a big cheer,
Have no fear
or shed no tear..
Go get a beer,
and put away the smear..
C'mon lets hear
a big hurray dear..
Dear Ro that's why my blog name is MRI report of a child's mind. APT HUH?
that's only a sicko talk. i can never act like that.
hey i share a lot with u. but few things i can't share except shed them out quietly without anyone's notice in the form of tears.after that i feel much better. a kinda ventilator.
and thanks for the wonderful lines at the end of the blog dear poetess.love n cheers.
All the best :)
@arv and sugandha: thanks a lot.
osey....paradise lo biryani pettesi mayam ayipoyav..ninnu vadala bommalliii
@swats: bariyani petti mayam nenu kaadu, nuvvu iyyindi..vij ki vellipoindi nuvvu. lol. chk it out swats.
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