Check my vital signs

........I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone..........

to tell u, I have never counted the number of times i felt that these lyrics are about me.
How can there be such a co-incidence?huh....unanswered q.
yeah,, am still alive..
all these days i was just with students all around me during the day time. dont ask me about the evenings and night. the above mentioned say it all.
but for the last 5 days, it's not so. I'm amidst of medicines, fruits, 'take-care/ get well soon' calls, love and concern. (yet there are few instances that killed me for falling sick that too weakness. huh...keep them aside.)
on day-1 doc said it's low bp. so i maintained my diet n living habits to bring my bp to normal. even after 3 days same condition continues. i'm pissed off. changed the doc n changed the medication. after 2days, today i feel the same weakness. but second time doc said the bp is normal but the weakness can be due to gastro and asked me to reduce or stop eating spicy food. ahhh! among the readers who know me personally would laugh at it and cal it a 'gone case'. I DO NOT EAT SPICY FOOD at all. :) i understood that the doc is just some1 to be ignored. but am still unable to rule-out the reason behind this extreme weakness. 

however, psychologically i feel better if students are around me. i thought of taking classes from today. but the parents of my students who are sweeter than sugar have asked me to rest and said that they'll bring me food and asked me not to cook. however, i gave them 2 options, if they are so keen to bring me food from 12 kms far then they shd also bring their children for the class or else no student no food. so sweet of them they brought me lunch and breakfast in the first two days and 2 of them took me to doctors on 2 different days. they felt the emergency and responded in time. in a day i get calls from my students all the 3 times just to check if i had food or not. wot else can fill me with joy and happiness. i feel so content about myself and my job. they (students and their parents) are like my friends. when in need, they were with me in-deed.
 
today evening am gonna check with another doc...and i call it my final trial to rule-out the reason behind this f***ingly extreme weakness. symptoms are: blackout, extreme weakness, giddiness, feel as if am gonna faint and sit down on floor, feel as if my nose bleeds but actually it doesn't, headache all over especially more on backside, sometimes wet palm and feet, blackouts while changing position to stand-sit-sleep.
am having adequate sleep, enough fruits and food, ample water for the last 4-5days. even medicines for 2 days. yet there is no improvement. it cannot be sun-stroke for 2 reasons, i haven't been exposed to sun of late and there is no sun in Bangalore, it's been raining. also it's not extreme stress coz i take 2-3 hrs gap in between after lunch. then wtf is it?   

 

i hope from tomorrow i resume my classes and back to normal.
(good news: i wrote the spelling tomorrow without the help of dictionary and spell-check. yeppie i got it. tom/or/row).