so sick....

am so sick..i dont medicines wen am not well n i pray god that i recover soon. so dumb huh? but 1 grt thing i attain by doing this is lots of patience and 1 grt thing that i lose is time. today am feeling pathetic. am down with high fever n severe body pains with few more extra bonanza offers like running nose, mild headache, watery eyes and loose grip. i tried sleeping in the evening but cudn't fall asleep because i have to submit many things tomorrow. am sure this fever will come down in case i don't finish the work. if i finish the work then it will not leading to disappointment.
I'm so confused at this moment am feeling so bad n lonely...my sissy went to vizag..i have no choice..i have to stay back in the hostel. buhuhu.. i'm feeling like pathetic. i need some hugs...

I think it's the toughest jobbbb...

i think it's really very tough to keep a secret. how many of u can keep secret?? i always share atleast with any one of my friends. recently i've realized something and thought that i should keep it to myself and not to share it with any of my closest pals. few of them are trying to guess but are failing. lol. there's psychic fun in telling frns and asking them to make guesses and not revealing it. i know am bad in this regard...
huh believe me...it's real tough situation that am facing to keep it to myself. i thought i'll post it in my secret blog. damn it i forgot the password and unable to trace it. it just skipped out of my mind because i'vent used/posted for a long time. buhuhu...:((
I'll see for how long i can keep it..
planning to keep it for life time..hmm gud news is it's slowly sinking it to me..
:P :P


A New Channel 2 Find Happiness..!!$$$!!

Emotions are so exhausting!! I dunno about others..sometimes I can't express many of my feelings and emotions to few friends fearing if i'll lose them. it's only my assumption. i know they'll never leave me...they accept me the way i'm. but still there is sothing in the corner of my heart and mind that keeps me pulling me back n warns me ..'hey hello..watch out..'. aaah.
When this type of things happen i feel bad and ask myself 'why me??'. then suddenly i remember there are few other ppl to cheer me up. my new students. yeah..I was recently given 4 new children with learning disabilities and slow learners and 2 new children with mental retardation. i've already started teaching these 4 ld & sl kids. they are such lovely n cute chutkus. their age range is 9-15. the 15 yrs young boy doing 9th reminds me of my ex-student in many ways. they are in no way comparison with each other. one is extremely soft and cheerful and the other is extremely lovable and adorable. but the intimacy i've built with my ex-student..i'm unable to build this time because of various reasons like time, space, vagera vagera.
it's good that i've really studied a lil bit for my exams and able to apply it during my practicals and may be this simple logic n secret is making stand at 1st position in my class and makes me feel proud of myself and my students. i dunno whether my students ever realize that're really lucky to get sans as their special educator/ teacher. they've got the best. i'm doing my best and am getting the same result. hmmm i'm lovin it. the sad part about this is my practical classes are about to get over in a week. i'll miss them. we have practical only from tue-friday. these children make very sad faces on friday's as they wont be able to see me n attend my classes till tuesday. even i feel same for them. unknowingly i think i'm creating attchment with them. i've learnt a lesson from my past teaching experience that i shdn't become so close and create so much of intimacy with students. it's so painful to leave them and to move on. the memories r really killingly painful. well..coming back to present...sans is really enjoying this teaching-learning practice to the best and getting same results. i wish i get some more time to do some more efforts to go beyond lil best if possible..
hehehehe lil greedy huh"?????

see you again..tc..enjoying blogging.

my latest crush


hehehe....i'm feeling very shy n strange. i like it n i don't. totally confused.
few things are making go crazy dese days are listed below...note:not all :P(so in case if u've any guesses/expectations u may not find them here... :p)

1. farmville on facebook...
2. 4 songs on my music xpress.
3. few blogs..of mine n others..i'm reading again n again
4. party mood..:P
5. my new students...
6. going for drives
7. few songs lyrics. this one..am feeling so strange...u know i hate reading..but am reading few songs lyrics like mad
8. n many more.... :P
ishh gup chup.

PS:i know this is something dumb...but still am posting.

spendin some time for n wid u...

i dont understand sometimes i become so sick and feel too damn lonely..that moment time n life seem to be absolutely sucking. i hate it.
i was thinking that most of my best friends (girls) are married and one is about to get married.
Amritha, Rohini, and now Sahithi.
thanks to Sugeetha's and my parents for sparing us with some more sucking time than........(content supressed)......

I was seriously thinking that all those who are married are away from me now then how can i spend time with them.
then i suddenly remembered this pending tag.
this tag is done in the name of ro(i promised her long back) asuming that i'm telling her and for her.

RULES: Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

1.What is your current obsession? FRIENDS

2. What are you wearing today? Night dress.

3. What’s for dinner? Should as hostel mess in-charge. i don't have any clue. :(

4. What’s the last thing you bought? hmmm..on diwali: flowers to decorate rangoli. :P

5. What are you listening to right now? My Inner Voice

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you? Friends Forever :)

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Opposite to any beach n beside all my friends houses. \m/

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer? Sound sleep, non-stop electric power, cool n uncrowded places to hangout in the evenings. :P

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? 1. delhi..to see amrita, 2. vizag to see kids at santhi ashram, 3. dreamland to see my db.

10. Which language do you want to learn? american sign language, tamil n arabic

11. What’s your favourite quote? Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of man. ~Rabindranath Tagore

12. Who do you want to meet right now? vamsi..he told me that he wanna reveal a secret....hoo am so excited. he left me clueless..but it seems it's very funny. waiting eagerly for the evening to come soon. :P

13. What is your favourite colour? PINK

14. What is your favourite piece of clothing in your own closet? a new pink and white satin top that i bought casually at globus turned out be my hottest clothing. i wear it almmost 3-4 times a week. heights of craziness??

15. What is your dream job? Dream job means the job we do in our dreams??hahha gud1. i like it. simple..romance with db. if in reality.. it's being a special educator.

16. What’s your favourite magazine? dumb q. i hate reading. so no place for magazines in my life.

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on? 1. would like to buy membership at Dyslexia association of andhra pradesh(DAAP), 2. nice handbag, cool capries, stylish n trendy anklets...hey i think the obvious answer will be Accessories and clothing.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas? :( i dunno.

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon? too many to list. eg., bipasha basu,

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
I recently got my hair permanent straightening. lol it turned out t be a disaster. but i'm comfortable in this.

21. What are you going to do after this? get ready n go out with frns.

22. Who is your favourite sport star? what? lol. :P no1.

23. What are three cosmetic/makeup/perfume products that you can't live without? 1.local made surma, that i bought at charminar. 2. kajal stick gifted by a pakistani frn of my sis. 3. peach coloured n flavoured lip gloss.

24. What inspires you? realism n practicality.

25. Give us three styling tips that always work for you: 1. always wear a smile. smile should reflect from your eyes as well. 3. attitude n body language count more than wot u wear. \m/ bindaas.
26. What do you do when you “have nothing to wear” (even though your closet’s packed)? continue to wear wot i wore that moment...i dont swaet at all. so no problems. lucky me.

27. Coffee or tea? Tea. tEa teA. teteteeeee

28. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed? 1. lock n cry inside the washroom. 2. wash face come out. 3. switch on music, eat n then call some friend.

29. What is the meaning of your name? Peace. ppl say it's a misnomer for me.

30. Which other blogs do you love visiting? All those that I follow. ..

31. Favorite Dessert/Sweet? all sweets except mosore pak. all i cecreams.

32. Favorite Season? winters. :P

33. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me? just 2 minutes... maggie noodles.

34. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you? just give them away back properly in the public. show ur attitude that they havent ever seen/ heard of before.

35. What do you love most about yourself? patience, innocence, kiddish yet high levels of maturity. my attitude.

36. what is that you think most about? i mostly think about my career.

i am supposed to add a question. hmm.. my question being

37. why is this tag so lengthy? :P

huh....at last..finished baba. this is a cool tag. thnx 2 ro. it was like talking to u while answering this tag. had a nice time.
see you all soon.

i'm tagging:swats,
cs,
arpita,
ab,
swat
sugandha
ekam
pulkit

aah. this tagging part took really very long time. done!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

The bird a nest, the spider a web, man friendship. ~William Blake
(source)
I just love u ....Vamsi,Trinath,Sugeetha and Pavan.
Festivals are like most awaited days for many. i don't wait for them. for me every moment with these guys is a well celebrated festival. When a real festival celebrated with real friends is just beyond heavens.
This diwali... celebrating with my friends was something that i really dint expect and/or plan for. but it turned out to be a sweetest n pleasant unexpected surprise cum memory. this great feeling of mine can't be expressed in words..as am falling short of words. even my grandiloquent friends chaitu and ro would fall short of words if i ask them for.

dese days because of work pressure am finding very lil time to spend with my frns. though am in regular touch with them over fones..it makes grt difference to meet them and talk to them than talking over fones.

thanks to my college for giving me a week time to freakout with my frns. holidays are just so important and they just disappear in no time. it's ok.. it has left me with an ocean full of sweet memories.
i feel my friends are like ideal family members. the understandings we have, the way we celebrate, freak out, plan, share,taking time, deal things is just awesome. thank god..for creating such lovely relations."unconditional".

I can sacrifice anything for them.
this diwali morning i wasn't reaaly feeling welll. had no mood n spirit to celebrate. i met vamsi in the evening. we went to meet trinath. it was just a random thought of celebrating together. in no time all the gang members met and .......

oh god i dont understand wer from i got so much of energy to jump, run and play while firing crackers. it's been a real long time i dint fire crackers. as i took resolution along with some other chuddy buddies not to fire crackers. but i had to break my resolutions. i dint feel bad at all to do so as i had to cheer myself up and to keep up my frns spirits.
WE HAD SOLID GALA TIME.
DIWALI WAS A BIG BLAST.
YUHOOO>>>> AM SO HAPPIEEEEEEEEEEEE......
I wish god bless us with such more n more happy moments and happy friendships.


Hope u all had grt diwali.
have a nice time.
lots of love
sans

Value Added Tag

Am just tagging a really touching, worth reading and thought provoking post of a blogger..
She's just awesome. wen i read the blog....i was just fuming out...blood boiled for a moment, thoughts flooded. but after few moments i came to real world, thought for a while and posted a comment on her blog for the same post.
Am a 'big fan' of hers and her blog. :)
Thanks to Ms. Suga.... for giving me permission with a positive attitude, to tag her post on my blog.
Read
Think
Act.

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