on silent mode

' Wont u get tired of talking?', 'Alltime Talking Machine', 'chatter box', 'walkie talkie', etc were the statements/ labels/ compliments that i received from my near and dear ones, once upon a time. Of late am receiving comments like 'wont u get tired of  being silent?', 'Silent Maker Sans' etc. u think i've changed or the way ppl looking at me has changed?

i've changed and i've been changing for the last 1.5yrs and i'l have to change loads. i've learnt to listen and learn more. i've learnt that 'b4 v become a gud speaker, v have to b a gud listener too'. my experiences are my teachers. in the last 2 days i've learnt loads. thanks a whole lot of bunch to the BAD Time am having. i've learnt to be strong, bold, brave, confident, proud, silent, careful, behold, patient enough, courageous , careful etc. i've learnt abt ppl who are around me...the faces that i see- the minds that i failed 2 read, the behaviors that weren't expressed b4-the intentions behind. so much more to learn. i'm learning to fight!! fight n chase the fate n time. i've gottu learn-unlearn-relearn abt ppl. the way am changing, i notice few ppl around me also have changed and may change more. i've to be prepared, pretend & predict as well.

Latest thing that i've learnt is that nothing &/or no1 is permanent, be it a material/  intensity of a relationship/ a relationship itself and hence, i cant take even few things n/or ppl for granted. Though i'm finding it difficult to learn and face, it's gud. it is gud becoz am learning. i'm enjoying and i know that i've to. Am also learning to be alone and stand on my own feet implies---being independent, not depend upon/  wait / look for a friends shoulder to vent out my agony and to cheer up. i've learnt that sometimes i've to say a big cheers to myself. Time is the hero and my fate is the villain and am the victim. on 1side I'm feeling glad that it's better late than never that am learning these things,  on the otherside the child in me feels that it's too early for me to learn. both are right, right?

I've learnt that i needn't have to express all my feelings and emotions, out of which few have to be understood by the opposite person to whom i wanna express. i've learnt to be SILENT and finding it great. finally am doing justice to my name. Om sHanti oM! \m/